I invited some friends to watch me destroy some art along with a mannequin, a representation of societal expectations of women. These are pieces that frustrate me or no longer serve a purpose. They are being transformed.

Photos by Patrick Thompson–w

Footage by Joshua Veldstra

Here is a bit of my recent combustion art.

DSC_9998.jpgI like the result on this one. It reminds me of wings…..freedom.

Photo by Mark Pierson

New mini works

This is a series of 8X8″ mini paintings (watercolor, woodstain, acrylic,), varnish, rocks, and flowers all covered loosely with sheer fabric that contains recreated drawings from my treatment sketchbooks. I am continuing the idea of a curtain. I have reversed it from previous works where the curtain hid pain and have kept the traumatic moments faint but tried to make them in the forefront as a pleasing part of the whole. I find the works Niki de Saint Phalle encouraging in that as she evolved through her traumas into a more content person her artwork went with it, becoming joyful and bright. Also, Eva Hesse is similar in saying:

“I think art is a total thing. A total person giving a contribution. It is an essence, a soul.. In my inner soul art and life are inseparable.”

Sometimes my art spoke of my feelings when I didn’t know what they were.

Titles and finishing touches

Titles are tentative on these and function mostly for identification. As I hang these and examine them for the first time I filled with emotion and ideas moving forward. I feel Explosive #3 is near done. However I am going to some play with mirrors in Explosive #2. I also am feeling a pull to do some over painting on #2 to unify it a bit more. I am excited. I get a-lot of energy from the work that goes into these.


In Explosive #1 I may try a mirror addition behind but I like this piece it will be stretched however, I may leave the most destroyed lower right corner loose…..

Palo Verde #1 will be stretched to emphasize the mirror shape. I plan to include more painted contrast. (details below).

Palo Verde #2 is getting close I’m enjoying the texture, movement and smell of this one.


I ask for help.

I have been hosting stitching nights in an effort to manage the reconstruction of my most demolished piece. After harvesting the ravages of the explosion from a snowy field I puzzle pieces, pinned and started stitching. However the time required to complete this alone would be unrealistic. Just as in recovery I had to admit this was over my head and let go of having control. I gave no specific instructions. The community experience has been fun and rewarding. One more session of help and then I will finish the work on my own after contemplation.

Piecing it Together

My latest explosion transformed one canvas into many small rough pieces. It lay spattered across the snow. I couldn’t help thinking that there, in the trees and on the ground was art. The carnage of my paintings I equate to the devastation in life. Now I am trying in many different ways to reassemble these shards into something that is more meaningful,┬ábeauty that is not superficial.